So very grateful

When health problems or out-of-the-blue issues strike it takes me a minute to readjust my lens. I adapt to change pretty well, but when my mobility comes into play or a change is forced upon me I take a bit longer to roll with the punches. I suppose it is part of my inability to take things lying down. I question everything. It's not that I don't trust the people who provide me with change, its just that in order for me to wrap my head around the why's of things I have to know every detail. Once I have those details I am golden. Try as I might I can't just take " because I said so" as the reason for anything.

Last week when my back went out I knew the details. I have been dealing with occasional back pain for ten years now. 95% of the time I manage well. I practice my yoga, follow through on most of the exercises that the physical therapy has taught me. But after awhile I get comfortable. To be honest I get lazy. I make excuses. I get "too busy."And then I forget. It is always a four-part process with me. With a lot of positive changes I make in my life there comes a time when I revert back to my old ways and just forget (literally) about what change I was trying to make.

Is anyone else like that?

Obviously, my motivations change over time. My wide-angle lens turns fish-eye and I end up over-concerned with the sparkly aspects of life. So this week was a huge readjust for me. Last week by about the third day of not being able to ambulate around my house for long I gave in to it and let my body rest. My mind was entertained by The Hunger Games Triolgy, but I did take a time out for 7 days in which I did nothing. Sure, I reflected on how I put myself back into the position of flat on my back, but after I let go I realized my focus must be me and my life.

So rather than bore you with psycho-babble of my own inner workings I will list the readjustments I am making as fast as my body will allow me. I'm still a bit wonky on that front, but as the days go on I am getting better.

1.  Smoothies and Juices for 1- 2 meals a day.
2. PT exercises at least 2x per day.
3. Buy that hula-hoop to increase my range of motion.
4. Yoga in the afternoon because a morning practice is not going to happen unless I abandon my life as I know it and move to Massachusetts to study at Kripalu.
5. Research getting my NAADAC certification.
6. Apply for my LISAC when I have met the hours required. This should be late summer or early fall.

*side note: Tomorrow I have off and I am going to the Farmers Market to get some lovely homegrown veggies to enjoy in those juices and smoothies I love so much :)